Sliding Doors

Ever wonder where you’d be if you had missed the MS train? What would your life be like? What would you be doing right now? Where would a life free from MS have taken you? Would you be happier? Would you be fulfilling all your dreams? Or would you be in a perpetual state of procrastination because nothing had happened in your life to give you that sense of urgency that forces you to DO something? I often find myself pondering these very questions. What if I’d missed the MS train?

It’s a bit like contemplating winning the lottery. What would you do with £100 million / what would you do if you had perfect health? I know for an absolute FACT that I would be on my bike. Daily. I would probably have broken multiple records for my solo cycling trips around the world. I’d have run in all the marathons on offer. I’d be some high flying businesswoman successfully juggling full-time work with full-time motherhood. I may even be living in some hot climate, totally unaffected by the glorious heat and sunning myself by my very own pool on my days off.

On a less fantastical note, I would at the very least be in the gym everyday like I used to be. We certainly wouldn’t have two cars. And I may have taken part in a couple of cycling challenges across the globe… Would I be happier for it? Now, that’s a question! Who’s to know? One thing is for sure, I wouldn’t have got married when I did. I wouldn’t have had children when I did, which means that if I had children, they wouldn’t be the same children that I am so blessed to have in my life now. I wouldn’t be working where I work. I wouldn’t be living where I live. In short, I wouldn’t be living this life that I live. And my life as I live it today, regardless of the pain and exhaustion and all those stupid symptoms, is still pretty. darn. good.

Sometimes in life, good things fall apart so that better things can fall together.